Clearly , I am trapped in this Dream while I Dream within this Dream 

Time

For I have finally made my return 

I should not care anymore, but it’s so hard to let go

It always fucks me in the end.

Life Lesson

growing up in your spoiled little realm,
always thinkin’ someone owes you something,
ya had to answer to no one..
you don’t have fuckin a clue
what this world really is
what this world really is
but i will give you a hint,
its filled with sickos like me
so you don’t even stand a chance
you’ve been spoon-fed - words of fake praise,
to make yourself think your good stuff,
well i am the real truth sayer,
i’m telling you that you ain’t good enough
you’re gonna feel me come creeping up behind..
…you
LIFE LESSON…LEARNED..
you can’t take it no more
no choice but to learn the hard way
like the fear of the dark
i’ll be coming for you
there aint no stopping me
i’m gonna run you right to your grave
like the fear of the dark
there aint no stopping me
the ultimate preacher of sin,
ushering nothin but pure pain
every second you are awake during this carving,
nothing will be quick,
you can’t comprehend what you are going through,
you’ve been taught a,
LIFE LESSON
the scolding finger inducing the,
reprimand and consequence,
reprimand and disrespect,
reprimand and punishment

“Still Heart”

We are one
This breath of love swells my heart to bursting
I was nothing without you, and
Now I stand complete
Your beauty brings me to my knees
And with every moment I feel more unworthy
I feel that you could slip away
In the blink of an eye

And before it seems I’ve even blinked at all
Tragedy falls upon this love
I swear I knew it was coming
But why can’t it be me? -Now breathing stops; I’m just choking-
Oh God, why can’t it be me?

I could never make this choice on my own
Given a thousand years I’d never find the answer
This is not my place

But as the tendrils of my mind creep into my soul -And though I’d-
It’s as if the very life-force in me -never wish for her to-
blackens in the mind’s embrace -suffer here-
And as this darkness takes me,
I can feel my heart fade -I just can’t let her-
Fade away and leave me for nothing

I have witnessed such beauty
And it’s slipping away from me
Having caught a falling star
Which now crumbles through my fingers

The quality of life has decayed
A dreary monotone wasteland remains
I know what I must do
I must play God and give her mercy
I must end the suffering
She would do the same for me
I can’t leave her here this way
But how can I go on
Living with a heart that’s been stilled?

But as the tendrils of my mind creep into my soul -And though I-
It’s as if the very life-force in me -never wished for her to -
blackens in the mind’s embrace - suffer here-
And as this darkness takes me,
I can feel my heart fade -I have now let her-
Fade away and leave me for nothing

All i wanted to do was help. It seems I cannot make it that far, All I wanted to do was love and she walks away.